Love yourself

Dancing is the only Pure Art form!

Yes, I have a reason for feeling better, the narc has disappeared out of our lives, hopefully for good.

You have no idea what it is like to be pitched against a superior with NPD for many years, see his eyes glow and see his sinister smile whenever he thought up a new trap. And all because I happened to stumble over his furious shouting at other people. I never even realized that all the ensuing pitfalls and missing documents were directly from Hell, I attributed them to unlucky mishaps, made excuses, believed the extra work and overlapping projects to be work of an inexperienced person.

Until I had serious burnout. By then I was so overworked I could not fight any sinister workings. Thankfully, it was only being overworked and my resilience grew, as well as my doubts as to the integrity of said person. Yet I had no solid evidence, not a shred of proof.

Finally I had enough of being stripped of all my responsibilities. I calmly sat out the daily rage fits, the silly traps of “now you see it, now you don’t”, noticed the anger whenever I was having fun at my job and the satisfied grin when something was ‘cooking’ again. I even more calmly prepared an important job – suddenly two kids were chanting “You are going to lose your job!”. I thought ‘how?’

Until the day I was suspended. Ten days later I found out I was being accused of injuring 3 persons. As if I had ever touched them, and besides, 28 other bystanders could have testified. No joke, I was also accused of many other things. He admitted to the constant stalking and surveillance.

A whole year later the police, the firemen and the ambulance turned up at my doorstep due to a message he had gotten hold of.

If anything should happen to you, GO PUBLIC. There is nothing more terrifying to a narc than having his doings out in the open. And believe in yourself.

Tic Tac Toe

Oh vanitas! said the old Romans. Often have I wondered why certain people attempt to be over-ambitious and thwart other people’s plans on their way to being at the Top. As if that were the sole purpose of our short lives.

One friend told me about having been bullied for years by her female boss. The lady succumbed to an illness shortly thereafter.

Another, male, wanted to create his own “environment” by ruthlessly gathering information about his employees and then twisting the truth to use it as accusations against them, if they did not do exactly as he wished or if they thought up new, ingenious ideas that could disrupt his secret plans. He seriously hurt several dozen people, emotionally and career-wise, who then had difficulties scrambling back onto the road of normalcy.

Do you remember the movie “War Games” from 1983 with Matthew Broderick? Where a young man attempts a dialogue with the computer he has hacked into and suggests playing the game of Tic tac toe? After numerous runs of the game, the mighty computer gains the insight that no one can win, there is always black and white, good and bad, war and peace. The computer accordingly cancels the initiation of another world war, thus saving the planet Earth.

The current situation in Venezuela is crude: the Venezuelan citizens suffer hunger, thirst, lack of medication, yet are not allowed to pick up aid parcels from trucks on the Colombian side. The military have set up too many barricades, following orders from the Top.

Why can’t people use their common sense and love of one’s fellow man in order to help instead of hinder? We don’t need terrorists and twisted minds. We only have one planet and one life. And the life of either is short. Make peace. Save the planet.

The self or the selfie

Ego means the self, the individual, one’s own person as defined by psychologists, philosophers, social scientists, theologians, etc. The self or ego is per definitionem an image of Gold the Almighty, as opposed to another person or living being. That is why I was so fascinated by a televised documentary on elephants some days ago. […]

Ego means the self, the individual, one’s own person as defined by psychologists, philosophers, social scientists, theologians, etc. The self or ego is per definitionem an image of Gold the Almighty, as opposed to another person or living being.

That is why I was so fascinated by a televised documentary on elephants some days ago. Not only do they have gigantic feet that can feel the most delicate of vibrations or quakes, they also have their trunk which serves as a nose for breathing, can pick up about 400 different scents, thus more than a dog can, helps them to put food into their mouths and can be used as an all-round tool for multiple other purposes.

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Vincent van Gogh Iris

 

However, what fascinated me most, was the mirror experiment. It seems that when scientists presume animals to be highly intelligent, they devise a mirror experiment. Those animals that realize that they are the individual shown in the mirror prove that they can comprehend the abstract notion of an individual self, as opposed to the other animals and babies around them. The more the shame that these wonderful creatures are hunted for the ivory of their tusks.

And human beings? Are we truly conscious of our inner “self”? Or more often than not just take ten selfies in front of any sort of background without really reflecting on what and who we are?

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Selfie! and that is precisely the reason you are here.

It may seem funny enough looking at all those selfies – or getting an “external selfie” done by your boy-friend (I am quoting Django Asül here) and trying to recognize the background – eventually. But isn’t it worth more looking at your inner self, your ego, and considering if everything is fine or worth changing a bit?

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Self or ego also have to do with selfish or egotistical. Being selfish is not bad in itself. Being selfish has to do with mindfulness, taking care of yourself, being good first and foremost to that body and mind that are yours, just as Christ talked of when he said to care for yourself. Only then will you be able to take good care of others and fulfill what God has commanded us to do.

When was the last time you did something good to yourself? Don’t wait, do it now: Sing a song, massage someone’s back, make that phone call, whatever. You’ll feel way better and you will sleep better. Be an elephant.

 

For the fun of it, a children’s rhyme I (still) adore:

Eletelephony (1932)

Once there was an elephant

Who tried to use the telephant,

No no, I mean an elephone

who tried to use the telephone,

(… now you have to read the rest yourself!  just follow the link)